Insanity

Sometimes I fear i'm going crazy, seriously it freaks the shit out of me. I guess the real question is, is this a bad thing? I'm not quite sure to be honest, I see people who are insane and I think to myself why is it that they're like this and it's because they can't communicate with the rest of us. What if the people we as society deem insane are actually people who pushed the boundaries of their intelligence so far that the lost the control of being able to communicate clearly to the rest of us. For you to understand what I mean by this I'd have to explain a little. What the hell I got time might as well give it a shot.

In my opinion what governs our intelligence is our subconscious, meaning everything we know and learn to know is stored there. Our conscious mind is what we use to communicate our thoughts and ideas to another individual. Now what I meant by my previous statement is, that insanity comes only when one has delved so deep into their own subconscious, that they lose the ability of using their conscious mind to communicate to others. Now the next question one must ask is, is it worth it?

Let's say, Hypothetically of course, that someone came up to you one day and told you that with a snap of their fingers they could make you one of the smartest human beings ever to exist, the only repercussions of this would be the fact that no one would be able to understand at you and, as a whole, society would look down upon you. Would you do it? To be honest I don't think I would, sure it'd be awesome to have so much knowledge about pretty much anything and everything, but to not be able to share that knowledge would utterly eat away at me until I just shot myself haha. The reason I say this is because I like having my intelligence solely for being able to bounce my ideas and thoughts off of other people. I love criticism and feedback because they allow me to better myself where I can. In my opinion people who don't ask for criticism and feedback are stupid and wont ever truly reach their highest potential, but again that's just my opinion.

I want to say one more thing before I post this. If you live your whole life avoiding criticism then you will never be any better at what you do, who you are, and what others see you as; you will only be slowly getting worse and worse in others minds and your own.